i know it's only been two days since i posted, but i had to say this

this will probably appear somewhat sappy and stupid, but i don't care what you think.
this is solely for one person. and she will probably only hear this from me once. ever. so here it is.

dear you,

i know that we have never been the BFFS ZOMG that everyone makes us out to be. we have fought and we have not talked. we have laughed together and cried together. but we will always be sisters. always.

i know that i have sometimes been the annoying little sister that you hated to be seen with. i embarrassed you in front of everyone. i always picked a fight. i never could listen to anything you said. but i have also been the one that you could talk to. i have been the one that has the same interests, the same style, same taste as you. one could even call us friends. we have grown closer over the years, and i am so thankful that these past few years have been the greatest for us.

you taught me how to be a good sister, a good friend. now i know how it feels to be taken under an older sister's wing and shown around. i know how it feels to be excluded and down. i know how to be a good older sister for daniella. it's just hard for me.

and now, looking ahead, we have only about 8 or 9 short months together, and that is it. after those months, you will go off to college and i will stay here. i can't believe that you're actually graduating. you know what you will do with your life, and that is wonderful. i just hope you won't forget to call like EVERY day and tell me exactly what's happening. because i want to know.

you are my friend, my family, my sister. we go to concerts together. we go to the beach, music cranked up, singing as loud as we possibly can. we have been made fun of and we have fought each other and the world. but we have stayed together through it all. and i'm so afraid of what will happen when you leave.

you were never the best friend that i wished was my sister. you were my sister. for better or worse, we were stuck together. and we have had good and bad times together, i know. sometimes it was my fault, others it was yours. but we have stayed together for so long, whether it be because of blood or because of friendship. we have been with each other for my entire life, and i want to stay that way.

i love you with all of my heart. you are one of the two people in the world that i can call the most sacred of names. you are my sister.

love always,
me.