"so when you say forever can't you see? you've already captured me."

when this life starts to fall apart, i hope that you can help me put it back together.
i hope that we can find the time to be something.
because when it gets bumpy, i want to be the one telling you everything will work out.
i want to be there, holding your hand through it all.
i want to be the one who hugs you when you are crying.
and i want you to be able to hug me back.
i'm so afraid of running out of time,
so afraid that you won't be mine
too afraid to look ahead
and too ashamed to look behind.
i need to live in the present more.
i'm so afraid that i'm falling in love with you.
but i think i'm more afraid that you aren't in love with me.
don't you get it? everything i ever do is because i want to try to control my feelings.
and i should learn that it will never happen.
i just don't want to feel alone anymore.