the spreading cold.

lately, i've been just numb
so fucking numb
i can't feel anything but pain
can't see anything but what's right in front of me
caged in by the light and the bars
the only emotion i've had for what seems like decades was the flicker of happiness the other day
and even that wasn't enough for me.
what is the point anymore if it won't matter in the long run?
what is the point of doing my homework and being a good girl if it doesn't count for anything?
so tired
so numb
so lost
help me find my way home.
this might be a cry for a savior
or perhaps i should just stay lost
never found
always broken
you are near to my heart even when i say i don't care.
or whatever's left of my heart for what it's worth.
there is a coldness inside of me
creeping through my bones
covering my heart and my lungs with a veil of frost.
i cannot feel.
i cannot think.
i cannot hope to get rid of it.
i can only stand by helplessly and let it take over my life.
this is what i have become.
are you happy now?
i'm so numb.