"honey, honey, honey, you're the death of me."

crying until i can't anymore
so afraid of what could be
watched the colors fade to blue
and tried to forget you were there
and that i wasn't alone.
do you know how much i'm hurting?
but not just because of you.
wouldn't want you to get a big head, now would we?

i want to sleep for a few days or years and just stop living my life.
i want a life exchange.
my everything hurts, and i'm so afraid.
trying not to let you know how hard i'm crying from all this pain.
"i don't cry because the walls are too thin and i don't want anyone to hear me being human."
except i do cry, only under the cover of my music.
you only think that you know me, but there's a whole other part of me that you can't begin to understand.
just because you think you know me doesn't mean that you do, and i wish you'd stop saying you get me when you obviously don't.